feeling urgy...

Just wanted to make a post to my blog right now...I am feelings really urgy and i guess i figured that maybe posting here will help...i guess i want to write and not cut...

I guess this is sort of a stupid thing to cut over...but it is really stressing me out and making me feel out of control...idk...those are the feelings that I deal with by cutting...when i feel out of control like i do now i just want to find some sort of control...

right now my roommate is in my room watching a movie with two other girls...i told her earlier that i have a test tomorrow and needed to study but she still took over my room and is watching a movie...

also i am just in general getting fed up and stressed out and out of control of having people in my room constantly...

I feel like I am really behind in my classes too now because there are always people in my room...

On the weekends my roommate leaves and i get two days to refresh and gain my control back and then when she comes back I am just stressed out all over again...and she right away starts having a ton of people in my room...

anyways....i just saw a friend and got a hug and chatted with her...and i am feeling a bit better now...

now to study...

Emmy R.

Relapse...

I just found this "PostSecret" on the PostSecret Blog. It really hit me...maybe I let my relapses define my future...

wow...