December 14, 2009


Will my secret be a tale of heroism or fear?

December 12, 2009

texting conversation with my dad...

From: Dad Cell to me
I just checked the weather reports for next week. "Some snow" for *City Name of where i attend college*. Sunny in *City Name of home*. If i remember right you came home last year with a nose ring. I hope there aren't any such surprises this year?

From: Me to Dad Cell
Nope. No new piercings. And that was summer. :-)

From: Dad Cell to me
Are you sure? Well my memory is not so good, and I am sure you would remember better than were there...I just got the 7 days 3 exams facebook update. We are getting closer.

From: Me to Dad Cell
Yup. Closer and closer! And i got my nose pierced in february. so unless christmas break was after

From: Dad Cell to me
I guess I need to realize I'm gettin' older and forgetful. I just thought I heard someone say something about a guage. I guess my ears are going along with my memory.

From: Me to Dad Cell
Ya. Well that is not a new and they are really

From: Dad Cell to me
So, did you guage your ear(s)? I believe I asked if there were any surprises...

From: Me to Dad Cell
Lol...i didn't think that counted as a surprise...cause mom already saw them...

From: Dad Cell to me
I suppose if you are grown up enough to make bad decisions you are grown up enough to live with the consequences.

From: Me to Dad Cell
Well they shrink back up...i just have to leave them out for like a week...and i do not consider them a 'bad decision' there are much worse things i could be doing which i am not...

From: Dad Cell to me
You made a bad choice. I didn't want you to...and you did it anyway. So I'm done.

From: Me to Dad Cell

From: Me to Dad Cell
Well all i have to say is that you should be happy that i am a good i get a piercing or gauge my ears...That is better than going out and doing drugs or drinking or smoking...

so i am pretty frustrated with my dad...he is overreacting to a stupid situation...i have no clue what he means by me being "old enough to deal with the consequences"...that freaks me out a bit...but he should be fine with letting me become my own person...that is what the point of growing up is all about...

I was really frustrated after the conversation with my dad but thanks to taking a nap and a kind and encouraging text from my new friend kara...i made it through...i am on day five...i haven't really been keeping my blog up to date lately but just so you know...i fell, but am working really hard to pull myself back together and continue fighting...

anyways...i do not feel like wasting any more key strokes on him right now...

on another laptop is like falling of the hinges in the screen broke so half of the screen is falling off (well not literally falling off...but you get the idea...) i had to purchase parts to fix it my battery decided it doesn't want to charge i bought new hinges, a screen bezel (plastic piece that goes around the LCD screen), and a new ran me around $70...yikes...but much better than I was told it would cost as far as prices IT will fix it for free after I buy the parts! yay!

ok off to bed now...i am going to breakfast tomorrow with some friends...

Emmy R.

December 4, 2009


I wrote the poem below on 11/19/09...

I do not know
How to be a girlfriend
When to hug
How to act
What to expect
I'm sorry J*****
I suck at this
But I also do not have
Any experience
To draw from
I've watched others
Who I've seen their relationships
From the beginning
Sex, drugs, pregnancy
Emulating their choices
Could end horribly
I've seen movies
Relationships start accidentally
French kissing on the first date
In bed with each other
On the second
Utilizing that framework
Would not be a good idea
Other relationships I see
Married friends
Friends who have been dating longer
Do they even apply?
Suggestions come at me
From all sides
How fast to go
(you gotta keep his interest)
How slow to go
(do not be a slut)

ok so it is sort of an unfinished poem...

Here is what has been going on lately...

I am trying to decide if I want to be an RA next would mean not graduating in three years, and graduating in 3.5 instead...which would still be ok...

Also in regards to the poem, I went on a date with a guy friend of mine. It was a good date, but he wanted to hang out right away the whole weekend. I hung out with him two nights that weekend, one for the date and the other because I went broom-balling with a group from his church. At broom-balling he and another guy friend were saying mean things about a friend of theirs who happens to be my friend's boyfriend...and they happen to be friends with my friend as well. Then I was told not to tell my friend about what they said. I am sort of frustrated by this situation. I am the type of person who always puts her friends first. I am not going to tell my friend about what happened because it would hurt her, but that is the only reason. This guy freaked me out by asking too much too soon. Hanging out all weekend after the first date???? YIKES!!! Also, his cousin introduced me as his girlfriend. After one date!!! I haven't really hung out with him since. I still like him but I am not sure that I want to date him until I get to know him a bit better...maybe we can just hang out a bit more together in a group and get to know each other better that way...idk...i just do not really know what to do...

I have to head to work, I will probably write more on this subject later...

Emmy R.